Pondering the mind and discovery of time
for the people without.
for the people without.
Ive come to the realisation that i have built a super strong facade. sometimes i can even trick myself into being happy. Much like edward norton in fight club. I feel i have a super strong alter ego impervious to any thing, then when something super shit happens, i crumble and crash back to reality, and im cowering in the corner wrestling with my emotions and thoughts, trying to find some version of sanity. I am a shadow running from the light.
another week another funeral to go to.
another family to console .
another of the good ones gone.
i know there ok.
but it makes me wonder
what will happen to me when my light switch off,
are we conveniently religious when death is thrust upon us.
we all have some form of faith weather we recognise religion or not
believe in a soul or not,
Doctors have told me I have a high pain threshold, but I can only know what I feel. I think I’m good at minimising the pain and being indifferent to it.
Johnny Knoxville
